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10:36 a.m. - 2013-10-06
Well I wanted him to like me. In fact I would have don'e just about anything to change the outcome and have him think there could even be the possibility of a future together. The reality is NOPE. He either has someone else or he just isn't interested. Either way he hasn't responded back well though he has answered a few emails most of them have had some question and very few have had no answer at all. So ya I am kind of disappoints. I use to never have problems gaining a guys attention, turning him on and getting him to notice. But I'm not what I use to look like and I just fell flat on my face really. And it hurts. Not only because I like him and he doesn't like me back, but because he would have been a good catch and my self esteem just fell flat. :(. Crap he really doesn't like me this sucks!

Anyways on another interesting note Bishop Terry is now in Newbury today. Um ya. Bishop Bob was suppose to be here and he didn't show... Question is why? Other then he thinks they will give him a hard time... They will dont worry. It would be ackward but I thought they might finally get passed this whole issue... nope they are still stuck. Well maybe though I hate to say it but they took Bishop Bob off his high pedistal. And he would do well to learn some humbleness anyways. I didn't do anything to him or the parish accept to work hard... Lot of good that did at all. Well their priest is now leaving.., congratulations here you go again. Shakes head. So that's life. I haven't worked for 3 1/2 years of the almost 5 years I have been out of ministry. I got a second masters degree. I got straight As and I could not have done better then I had and basically it sucks.

So no winning the guy and no winning back my career calling. How nice. :(

Some days I just hate being around. Good thing Steve tries to keep it together because the reality is I'm tired of being hurt.


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