Turning down John's offer.....
10:30 p.m. - 2008-08-30

John just suggested we "curl up". The guy who continues to make me cry and is moving out of my home to his own apartment on Monday. WHY WOULD I WANT TO SLEEP WITH HIM? Really could I set myself up even further for more hurt when he leave? And whether I sleep with him tonight or not he is clearly leaving me.

In many ways I wish he was gone tonight as i would have gone out and had fun even if it was meaningless lighthearted excitment. But there likely will be a rain check yet on the bon fire idea. Tomorrow night I need to have one at my new house to get rid of a bunch of brush regardless because it is too big of a pile now. So I guess I will get to see a bon fire despite it all.

Regardless tonight the response to John was why would I want to curl up? So you can hurt me for yet then you are? UM...no thanks John.

C.
C.

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